I was mainly talking to my Self.
I wasn’t selfish. Nor was I anti-social. I was just an ordinary girl who likes to be alone. I can always listen to them. I like people who blabs a lot so I won’t have to blab in return. I’m used to looking up and looking down. Used to reading alone. Used to talking to God silently. That’s just me.
Maybe I wasn’t like that before. Maybe I like all the attention. Maybe I was rooting for attention. But that was before. I want to be out of the picture. I want to be unseen. I want to be known as Me. Cos When I’m up there I will get more comments, suggestions and whatevs. Maybe I don’t like that anymore. Maybe I just want to make everything simple. Leave everything unspoken. Cos Everybody doesn’t need to know me. And I don’t need to explain myself to them.
People may start hating me. They may start growing further apart from me. But I don’t mind. All I know is that there’ll always be those persons who will stay by my side regardless of the fact that I’m a hermit. A gawky ol hermit who has a super smile :P
I love laughing. Laughing is one of my hobbies. I laugh for no reasons at all. I love smiling. My smile is unnoticeable but it’s still a smile worth priceless. hahaha. Everybody loves me when I smile. I cried one time (I forgot why) I know it was about my smile. When some people told me.. “I miss your smile.” that super smile :P Not boasting though. But that’s all I got to show off. haha. At least I have one :)
I’m proud that I have God. I am not ashamed that I read His words everyday. It’s not even called religious. It’s just having a personal relationship with Him. And loving Him and His only begotten Son. :) I don’t mind talking about Him all day. I can tell everybody over and over about Him. And I know He’s worthy to be praised. :)
I’m more than contented with what I have now. Family, love life, friends. Maybe I get a bit depressed and I think too much when it comes to dealing with Life. But I get by. I have God and my loved ones anyway :)
I can’t be someone who can impress others. My blogs don’t get a place in the “hit chart” but I’m very vocal now with I really am not having to pretend what I want to be just to please everybody. I do not live to please people. I live to inspire and encourage and make people happy even in the simplest way.
I’m mainly talking to myself. Voicing out for some to hear me. I need not to be accepted. I need not to belong. I just want all of you to know that this is me. And I just want you to know that I might not have the prettiest face on earth or the gorgeous body everybody wished for, I’m still Me, one of God’s beautiful creation. Created in His own Image. And you’re just like me.
Maybe all I wanted was to be respected and to be treated equally because We are all equal in God’s eyes.
Thank you. God bless you if you have read this wholeheartedly :)
with love,
Nicolina♥